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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 05:35:31 GMT

can u just act like u care nd stfu wif the lol!

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waiting patiently

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 19:34:19 GMT

waiting; i constantly find myself waiting, waiting patiently. hopeing that we can move to the next step. constantly checking my fone, or aim to see if u've signed on. would u hold my hand and lead me the way? show me the beauty of this love. walk with me thru this path of obstacles, show me the way, go thru everything wif me. show me,tell me, explain to me what ur world is like. be patient wif me and bare wif me khusz i'm not a smart person, i do stupid things, not everything is for me to see clearly with my bear eyes. i'm not a perfect human being, i can get really complicated but i hope u would understand. i can't give everything that u'll ask for but i will try to do the best i can. i can't be there by ur side 24/7 but know that u can always go to me and i'll always be there. i won't be able to solve all ur problems but i hope that just being there to listen will help u out. i can't be the perfect person u'll want me to be, but i hope that u'll see my flaws and accept them as part of me. nothing can come bring us down as long as we have each other. i dnt expect u to change in anyway for me, u are u and i like it just the way u are. i can't see thru u all the way and i know u can't too so sumtyms u have to tell me or i wouldn't know. like any other gurl, i get sensitive, i also do get jealous but understand that my biggest fear is losing u. my dear love, u're all that i have and all i ever wanted, i dnt want to worry about the future anymore, all i care is the present.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 20:28:43 GMT

what actually happened? in a split second everything changed.. we suddenly got really mad at each other.. i went to bed with anger and so did u. how did everythign fall apart so fast.. i don't want to be mad at u, i dnt want u to be mad at me either.. everything is my fault. ihm sorry, u're rigth to get mad at me. its all my fault. i won't hope tht u'll forgive me. its better if i leave u alone.. sorry..

Monday, January 12, 2009

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 02:14:18 GMT

why does things i ment to say never comes out right anymore. i lied about what i really want to tell u all along, now i can't go bak and changed what i said. u keep comin bak but i keep making the wrong decisions. ihm sorry i hate myself for what i've said. something i've never believed in is gettin in the way. i'm scared of seperatin so i build a wall so no one get close so i wnt feel the pain later on in the year. but u sum how got thru and now i'm stuck in between, i really don't know what to do. plz give me the courage to believe in us.. khusz i dnt wanna miss a chance again to loose u

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 16:20:29 GMT

it hurts me much more wen u lie to me and say ur ok knowing that ur really not. hurts that u use a smile to cover ur true feelings.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 20:14:56 GMT

things that happened in the past will not repeat itself no matter how much u want to change the hands of time. mistakes you've made, things you could've corrected, should have been done in the past. tryin to correct everything now is too late. hoping someone will see right through you or understand exactly what you are thinking is impossible. you'll hope every little hint you give out can send the message you want to say to that one person, hoping they'll understand what you're tryin to say is too hard.

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 21:44:09 GMT

damn.. i jhsuz hate it when im jhusz playin around and poeple take it seriously, its so annoying and kills dhe mood. nd wen i talk differently dhen how i use to talk to u, tht means ur startin to get on my nerves. i hate it when they don't realize that and keeps annoying me

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 23:41:41 GMT

hmmm.. 1week nd sum sum days left ov school till WiNTER BREAK! man i can't wait! lets see.. junior year sucks.. dislike most ov mai classes..nth special happen at school ... nth outta dhe ordinary which makes school more nd more boring..lets see.. o big bang! lol.. they release new songs fast tths good! khusz i get easily bored listen old songs.. can't wait fer dhe album tht they sing in english... lol oh! big bang is on a chinese magazine.. got mai fwend to help me get it.. hopefully they have it!! aiight thts all fer now lots ov work dis week.. take care everywun <33

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 23:31:48 GMT

ihm so sorry.. its all my fault

Friday, August 24, 2007

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 02:49:01 GMT

ARGG ihm so tired ov everthing that happen dis summer!! nothing went right for me dis summer! it sucks!! why am i still holdin on to sumwun who no longer feel dhe same! it jhusz hurts knowin tht u no longer have them khusz u once did. all dhe memories kept flashin inside my head. =(